for all these 3 years

hidup, hidup

senyum memang kadang cuma akting, pembohongan massal
dunia memang kejam
lagipula siapa yang pernah bilang hidup itu gampang?

aku masih inget di salah satu episode hitam putih bintang tamunya raline shah,  dia ditanya
"kalo kamu hanya bisa menyelamatkan 1 orang, siapa yg kamu pilih? mama atau adik?"
dan kondisinya ga beda jauh untuk aku,
"kalo kamu hanya bisa mempertahankan 1 keputusan, apa yg kamu pilih? dibenci seumur hidup sama temen (-temen) atau ambisi?"

emang bener, sekarang kamu bisa bilang hitam atau putih. tapi suatu saat, yang kamu lihat cuma abu-abu


yes, i'm in that grey

My Deepest Thank You: OASIS and SDC.

It's been the 365th day since I was inaugurated as the leader of Smala Dance Crew. And last Friday, the new leader had been chosen. I can tell you, being with SDC is one of the best times I have in my life so far.

SDC
DBL 2012

SDC
DBL 2013

So was being with OASIS, One Amazing Squad In Spensa. It was such a great memory, and sure, I'd have been nothing if I had decided not to take part in the audition. Yes, OASIS is like the opening door, a gate to a brand new experience I'd be having.

KOS (Keluarga OASIS the 2nd)
DBL 2009

OASIS 3G (3rd Generation)
DBL 2010

And here's my deepest thank you for everything, every lesson, you both have given me. Not only all the dancing or cheerleading techniques but also the spirits not to give up, to believe in every prayer and miracle, to work hard and moreover, to find your passion. To do what you want and prove that you can do more than what people think.

Sorry for every stupidity I've made, my anger, my carelessness, all that in these 4 years of cheerleading and dancing. All I want you to know that, I've given all my best. Every tears and laughter, sweats and energy, to create the best generation OASIS and SDC ever existed. I don't know if it's been accomplished or not (people judge), but today, when it comes to an end. I cant help crying, knowing that this is gonna be the last year I have to be with all of you guys. To be honest, I never regret any single step I've taken during these 4 years, cause I believe that's what made me into who I am now.

Thank you for everything. Yes.

EVERYTHING.

Keep stunning and rocking. My prayers will be with you forever and always!

(more stories, next posts)

5 cm.

Last night I watched one of Indonesia's best-selling movies of all time, 5 cm. Well, I can't deny that this movie is pretty good. You know, it shows the power of friendship and dreams so ya, a really good example for somebody like me, who can be in good and bad mood in a few minutes for studying (to reach my dreams). A good quote to note: stick your dreams 5 centimeters after your forehead so that you can see it every time.

One other reason I love 5 cm is that this movie is trying to show the beauty of Indonesia (especially Semeru) which is (I think) will be a good message for everyone in Indonesia (and also all over the world) to visit this country! Get a glimpse at the movie, and also the beautiful views of Semeru!

Ranu Kumbolo, surganya Semeru (katanya Genta)

Ranu Kumbolo pagi-pagi, ker-ren ba-nget!

di atas awan

Well, I must admit that in the end of the movie I got a an idea one day I will go thru the same track as Genta, Zafran, Ian, Arial, and Riani (the casts) to Semeru. Yes, I have 3 close friends and maybe we can do it together. But maybe not.... (sigh) None of us is in Pecinta Alam thing so probably we will get lost or give up so easily. But if it's a dream then nothing is impossible :)

And also, Riani (played well by Raline Shah) is so-damn beautiful! But Zafran (Herjunot Ali) is much-more-damn cool and charming!

First Driving Lesson (Finally!!!)

Today I had my first driving lesson with my daddy (and my eldest sista actually). So so so so EXCITED!! You may wonder why I am so excited, rite? Okay, maybe not but let’s just say yes to cheer me up :D

Well, I feel so happy because this is what I have been waiting for all this time! It’s been one of my targets since I was in 10th grader. You may check this one out. And I think it’s not much because most of my friends have had their own identity cards (let’s call it KTP) and later after having that one, they’ll have had their own driving licenses. Though some of them only have the SIM C (for motorcycle only), but the rest have both SIM A (for car) and SIM C. So I am kinda envy, peace :) But I could do nothing because I can’t drive so..... I just lay back and take a deep breath, realizing this: I’m so old-fashioned that I can’t drive a car in this modern era.

Do you know why I really want to learn how to drive? I give you the reason, I want to be a cool woman. I don’t want to be a full-time-housewife, I wanna have my own career and I am inspired by them who have their own cars and drive themselves to their offices. Later, I also want to drive my kids to their schools. I want to be a mobilized woman by not depending on others. (you may laugh)

And why I said FINALLY?

You may check the link I have given you above once again. Do you find any clue? Well, it is my biggest obstacle to not practicing how to drive a car. I ALMOST HAVE NO TIME. Yes, it’s yours to claim that I’m busy-wannabe (or in Bahasa we say sok sibuk) but I’m telling you, I am very busy. I had many things to solve in 11th grade (let me mention: Nouveau, SDC, S2LC, PERISAI) and I was like being chased by the deadlines and perfection. Also, as a student, we won’t forget this: HOMEWORKS. Super! I only had limited time to be home, and in that limited time, THERE WERE MANY HOMEWORKS TO BE DONE (sigh). That’s why I’d rather spend my holiday with sleeeeeeping better than practicing how to drive a car.

Well, I also want to thank one my (annoying #ups) classmates, Caca, who one day said ‘Eh, aku kemarin udah latian mobil lagi... Udah bisa belok!’ which later woke me up and motivated me to practice driving a car as soon as possible.

And here I am. This morning I went to Taman Sari Regency Sidoarjo (If I’m not mistaken, I forget the name of the cluster actually) with my dad and my sister (huh, she decided to take a part in this practicing time in last minutes and disturbed me all time). Well, I still can’t drive carefully since it’s just the first meeting (but wishing there will be many more meetings after this) but yeah I’m trying. You know, my car isnt the automatic one so I had hard times balancing and controlling the gas and kopling (I dont know the English ._.v) button. And also my dad once got angry saying ‘Udah udah wes nggak usah! Kamu ikut les nyetir yang mbayar aja sana! Kalo abis kopling trus ngegas tapi mesinnya mati terus gini lama-lama mobilnya protol mbak’ (and trying to uninstall the key) and I was crying (this part is humiliating). So please pray for me :)

And by the way, I hope it’s not too late to say HAPPY IED 1434 H. Minal Aidin Wal Faidzin :)

Sorry I don’t ask any apology by texting or sumthin like that since my cellphone is a total wreck.

Happy Holiday All!