Alhamdulillah.

Hari ini, malam ini, aku cuma mau bersyukur sebesar-besarnya sama Allah.

Masih diberi kesehatan sehingga bisa mengerjakan segala hal dengan lancar.
Diberi rezeki sehingga bisa makan Sate Acong dan Bola Ubi yang enak.
Diberi kekuatan sehingga masih bisa bagi waktu antara banyak hal yang sama-sama menguras pikiran.
Diberi teman-teman yang baik dan suportif.
Diberi suasana pertemanan yang positif dan tidak menjerumuskan.
Diberi kesempatan untuk merantau ke Bandung dan belajar memanajemen hati.
Diberi semangat belajar yang tinggi sehingga bisa belajar lewat banyak media.
Diberi baju yang bagus dan layak.
Diberi kemampuan berjalan dan naik kendaraan tanpa harus jalan kaki sepanjang hari.
Diberi rasa aman untuk menjalankan aktivitas.
Diberi rumah kos yang nyaman.
Diberi alat elektronik yang memudahkan.
Diberi buku untuk mencerdaskan.
Diberi kemampuan berkomunikasi untuk menyebarkan kebaikan.
Diberi kesehatan untuk berolahraga dan tersenyum.

Diberi segala hal yang aku alami dan terima hingga hari ini oleh Allah.

Ya Allah, semoga aku termasuk golongan yang selalu bersyukur dan menjadikan rezeki ini berkah bukan cuma untuk aku, tapi juga orang-orang sekitarku.

Aamiin.

As Sweet As Sugar: IECOM 2018.

Can I have this moment of victory just for a liiiiiittle while?

IECOM 2018 HAS COMPLETELY FINISHED!

This event is a wrap. And not only that it has come to an end, it also comes waaaaay better than I thought it would be. I regret nothing, not even a bit, joining this beautiful family bound by KPI after KPI every single month. I can say that Dadar (David Darmansyah) has set a very high bar for his successor and Pabulus as well would be a great example of how a great collaboration could be made possible all the way from a competition.

For me personally, the Grand Seminar gurl, well, some things were off here and there but at least I (and we) tried. At least I've got great staffs behind my back (and guys: Angel, Akbar, Ulfa, Adrian, Hana, Gita, Ryan, Tika, Nadira, you guys rocked! Couldn't make it of it's not you ❤ so my BIGGEST THANKS!) and supportive department that now became a family. Uh huh, we're going to have celebratory/birthday treat by our loveliest Mum, Hanna, next Sunday :)

We did things wrong several times, but most of the times: we're LEARNING something. But the things we did right, I am happy to finally call that we made it. We created a national seminar fully (you heard it right, FULLY) in English. Such improvement from last year's event. We invited important stakeholders from government (Haris Munandar, Secretary of Ministry of Industry Indonesia), private sectors (IBM, Schneider), start-ups (Bukalapak, Blibli.com, GO-JEK), and event media company (SSCX) with topics ranging from very technical stuffs such as Industry 4.0 (what else) to dynamic ones such as business process.....for free.

So we might as well hoping the next 2020 will have such spirit to improve!

My Biggest Learning

1. Practicing Thinking Tools for Brainstorming
This is my very first platform to practice my thinking tools material that I've got from XLFL, not only to myself.....but to my team.....long before StudentsCatalyst came to my life and put a twist. And this is the very first time I believe that working in a team the virtual way....is not that bad. Countless line call and KWL brainstorming through Google Drive across cities (even islands....oh Bontang) to do such brainstorming were cool. Never thought that in a very conventional MTI peeps' way of thinking...virtual teams could make this happen, effectively).

2. Coordinate, Coordinate, Coordinate
Let's say I have years of experience handling events from music concerts to volunteering projects, there will always A ROOM TO LEARN. I've got lots of time working to conduct a seminar but each has different circumstances and stories so I learned a lot of new things. How to have my own PJ MSDM in a division, to do ticketing, to deal with big companies, to interact with significant people in this country.....well a lot.

3. Industry 4.0!
YES, YES. We've got so little number of Indonesia's companies applying Industry 4.0 so I want you to know HOW HARD IT IS to brainstorm the theme and topics (like bunches of papers I've read and countless tabs of websites I've hopped to seemed not enough) since we got no examples of the best practice here in this country where reaching Industry 3.0 has already been an achievement. I got empty glass on my brain regarding this matter, but now 9 months later that we got to end this, even if my glass's not full either, I've got something to fill my glass with. I've been such an ignorant over this industrial thingy my whole life (you know, very technical things like this stressed me out) but I know this cant happen again and again. So I'm grateful that I've been given this wonderful opportunity to learn Industry 4.0 earlier in my career and I hope that the event can give you such insights too.

4. KPI KPI KPI
This bothers me much the beginning but later did I know, these KPIs are the things that kept us going in the end of the day, whether it's because of our own targets or simply because it's the.....deadline. And Dadar gave such a good twist to this thing through MSDM and Kadep (kuddos, Mineta!) that in the end, we really know what to do and what not to do since the very first day. So this KPI stuffs really gave me such a refreshment to my future work that planning & targeting will always be the key to great events. You when you fail to plan, you plan to fail.

5. A STRONG BOND
Cliché. But I love how these peeps keep empowering each other to strive for the best. To not forget having fun along the way while at the same time burning our spirit off finishing our own responsibility. Oh really, gonna miss those rakor, briefing, and eval nights pretty much. And little things such as how we laugh over the cucmey joke or these cute little notes (and sweet snacks for this sweet tooth) in between moments. An ultimate pleasure working with all you, 34 smart-ass guys!

Last but not least, me personally wanna thank anybody who have been giving me this opportunity, who have supported me (and my Grand Seminar babies) all the way, who have trusted me being your Master of Ceremony (such debut in formal events and I'm grateful), and those who have prayed for this thing to happen.......beautifully.

May God grant you all the best things in life ❤

IECOM 2018, this stubborn head wants to wave you a sincere goodbye to end her journey in MTI.

Bukan Galau.

Sekali lagi ini bukan post galau okeh.

Lately I've been healing myself and feeling much much better, in terms of love life. I have recovered pretty much, I feel relieved, I feel content, I am having fun with the life I choose right now. And I'm thankful.

Tapi inilah anehnya hidup.
You can say you have recovered like a lot of times but when the time comes, you can't help it.

Apakah aku sudah completely fine?
Oh yes. Aku sudah sepenuhnya sadar aku ini udah putus sama Nabil and there ain't a way we're getting back together...like ever. And I'm totally fine. Aku menerima kalo ya gaada gunanya juga w cling to past memories, ngarep balikan whatsoever when I knew it already in the first place, we will NEVER. So why bother.

Masih sayang Nabil: coret. Goodbye, bil. Let me continue my life.

Tapi there's still this burden left. And after a while, mungkin aku mulai tau ini kenapa.

Kalo Mamuy cerita tentang kehidupan cintanya yang selalu ada. Literally selalu ada, meskipun bukan pacar tapi entah mantan entah gebetan selalu langsung ada gapake lama itu kadang aku ini either ngerasa iri, atau ngerasa insecure.

What did I do totally wrong in life when Bethari is basically single her entire life except 8 wrecked months with Nabil and 4 dramatic months with Brian while Mamuy is basically always in a relationship whether it's official or just another twist from her ex kinda love story, her entire life as well?

Aku nggak menyalahkan Tuhan sih. Ya aku bener-bener paham tiap orang ada jodohnya masing-masing. Mungkin aku emang belum ketemu aja. Mungkin cara dipertemukan akan beda juga sama Mamuy jadi gabisa dibandingkan. Tapi balik lagi, kalo aku sudah menerima kenyataan ini tuh kenapa aku masih beban dan kepikiran gitu loh?

Jawabannya, might surprise you.

I do not miss the love (nor the person).
I miss the idea of BEING IN LOVE.

You see these two are whole different things, right?

I miss the feeling of butterflies in my stomach, the stomping beats of my heart, the relief in mind when I get to see the man I love smiles back.

You know, this kind of experience.

And frankly speaking, the last time I had was with Nabil. Brian was close but not enough. And I guess that pretty much justifies my feelings to him. Why I seemed to struggle a lot to completely move on from him, why I had head over heels when I saw him, why it looked like too hard for me to let go of the memories.

Cause it WAS too hard for me to let go of the feelings and the experience. And now that it became worse, I (admit that I) miss it.

Harus gimana ya?

Don't tell me to do whatever that makes me happy or anything so I won't remember such things. I did. I did lots of things I can't even manage my time ok so don't come ever closer to tell me the same thing. It's just.......now that I'm almost 22 and I only had 1 ex all my life and I'm going to enter the so-called real world after college, that people said it's much harder to find the one. I kinda feel the urge, and I'm afraid.

So. Very. Afraid.

Apakah akan ada seorang yang dengan rela menerimaku apa adanya, dan di sisi lain akan aku terima apa adanya juga untuk bersama-sama menjalani hidup sampai maut memisahkan?

Karena aku setakut itu kalo nggak ada and I'll just be another lonely generous grandmother who spends money for every kid I meet when deep down, I want to spend for my very own kid.

***

I lost words to close this post like I don't even know what my conclusion would be. I just want to virtually cheer my prince charming and secretly wish him a very safe trip to where I am, to not fall, to not die, to endure, to bear, and to strive the better version of him while I myself keep improving myself that when the time comes......we need no time to complete each other (we have on our own). We only get the time left to EMPOWER each other.

And I think that's gonna be the best love story ever. ❤

Seorang Aufar.

Hai, far (kalo baca, but most likely....not).
This is me, one of your other insignificant fans.
I'm writing this to pour my admiration towards your (super duper very much) outstanding achievement you have gone through that we all envy adore.

OH MY GOD.
It's February and you have graduated. WOW. WOW. WOW. Pengen lanjut ngomong WOW sampe seribu kali tapi masa satu postingan isinya WOW terus kan aneh.

Tapi WOW. WHY U GOTTA BE THAT COOL?
LIKE SERIOUSLY DUDE???

Sebenernya w mau nulis banyak banget hal ya mulai dari workshop XL, volunteering Atambua, BLP, sampe update TA tapi ini mah lu keren bgt I kenot jd harus ditulis cepet2.

GIMANA CARANYA MENJADI
KEREN SEPERTI DIRIMU FAR?!

Kayak kata Bogik: "Orang paling keren di HMM yang pernah ada."
Terus kata Uke: "Gausa didoain sukses juga lu udah pasti sukses."

Huhu w gatau bagaimana keadaan HMM whatsoever but I can totally relate to them (???)
Kayak w baru kenal beberapa bulan tapi wow wow ku kehabisan kata-kata menggambarkan betapa kerennya dirimu yang membuatku:

1. Terkesima karena u sekeren itu
2. Termotivasi untuk menjadi sekeren dirimu
3. Berkecil hati karena aku kayak brutu ayam yg bulunya udah dicabuti di sampingmu.

Huhu, does anyone feel the same here?


W tida tau dirimu seperti apa yha, tapi yha selama ini w cuma tau km pacarnya temennya Gaby, terus Geng 0 yang suka ajeb-ajeb tapi pinter2 (gimana yak caranya???), punya landasan helikopter di rumahnya, dll dll yang katanya kamu keren tapi masi gangerti letak kerennya dimana.
Etapi gilak sejak kenal di YLI baru tau ternyata lu sekeren itu kayak......

ASHRAE?!
ohmaigad itu lomba terkenal banget dan terkenal susah dan ini sedunia dan u menang di kategori yang sulit juga dan di Amerika sono? Sedangkan w menang lomba di Indonesia aja kaga pernah.....hihuhu kasiannya diri-q.

BIKIN LAMPU TANPA LISTRIK?!
Yatuhan kekerenan apalagi nakkkk ini udah bisa bikin lampu kaga pake listrik, berhasil ngumpulin dana 2 jt di Kitabisa, disebarin ke warung-warung beneran, dan w udah ngeluh-ngeluh bikin acara di Dolly yang sulit padahal kerjaannya cuma ngumpulin orang aja....huhuhu.

BP DI HMM?!
Udah sesibuk, sepinter, dan sekeren itu ternyata nggak apatis...huhuhu kalo apatis atau nonhim sih w pasti ilfil yak tapi ini masih sempetttt aja jadi BP....kapan si lu ngerjain tugas atau belajar atau ngerjain proyek2 itu far.....kek w aja kayak ga ngapa2in gini bagi waktu aja mo matik.

UDAH DAPET KERJA DI ACCENTURE?!
Yak okeh dengan pengalaman intern di BCG pasti akan sgt mudah bagimu mendapat kerja dimanapun yg u mau...sedangkan w mau apply kerja jg bingung huhu w aja masi gatau mau kerja dimana (???) yatuhan bet mengapa dirimu menyedihkan...

FEBRUARI UDAH SIDANG?!
Cobaan macam apalagi iniiiiiiiii ketika u udah sidang sedangkan w baru mulai menyusun latar belakang. Udah dapet perusahaan aja w udah alhamdulillah sedangkan u Februari udah sidang which means....wisuda April??? Ommo ommooooooo aku merasa sgt very worthless....

DAN U UDAH KAYA DARI SONONYA?!
Yha bagian ini maap2 ye agak judgemental dan terkesan matre tapi gini loh. Ini adalah hal yang paling aku kagumi dari seorang Aufar malah. Aku dapet banyak bgt cerita kalo Aufar emang kaya (banget tujuh turunan) dari sananya. Yha bayangin aja kalo di rumahnya ada landasan heli masa kaya boongan kan. Jadi gini:

• Seorang Aufar bisa saja memilih untuk santai-santai aja sepanjang hidupnya karena hidupnya udah terjamin enak, tapi dia memilih untuk tetap BEKERJA KERAS dan BERPRESTASI.
• Seorang Aufar bisa saja untuk memilih menjadi orang bodoh aja sepanjang hidupnya karena toh meskipun bodoh juga masih kaya-kaya aja tapi dia memilih untuk tetap BELAJAR dan MENJADI PINTAR.
• Seorang Aufar bisa saja memilih untuk menjadi orang yang malas aja sepanjang hidupnya karena toh dia bisa make nama keluarganya untuk melanjutkan dinasti kekayaannya tapi dia memilih untuk tetap MANDIRI dan DIKENAL UNTUK NAMANYA SENDIRI.

Entah yang keren orang tuanya Aufar karena didikannya atau emang Aufar yang memang udah keren bawaan lahir tapi intinya ya gitu............

Seorang Aufar emang sekeren itu.
Huhuhu

(semoga aku tetap berjuang untuk bisa sekeren km ya far)

Update #1 Tugas Akhir (Penting Banget).

Wow tugas akhir. TUGAS AKHIR.

T  U  G  A  S    A  K  H  I  R

O ow kata ini datang juga. Akhir tahun ini (insyAllah) akan mengakhiri tahun dengan gelar baru....akibat kata ini.

Bagaimana kelanjutan tugas akhir saya???? Apakah seperti TA1 yg sangat sungguh terbengkalai?
Hehe lets hope for the best.

Checkpoint #1
Hari ini, Kamis 1 Februari, tadi aku dan 11 orang lain ke PT. Dirgantara Indonesia (PT. DI), sebuah pabrik komponen pesawat an pesawat di Bandung yang masih satu komplek sama Bandara Husein. First impression, sumpah PT DI luas banget paraaahhhhhhhh capek banget disana kalo harus jalan kaki menyusuri setiap sudut wkwk. Lalu, PTDI juga waktu masuk......hmmmmmm #youknowwhatimean. Ya gimana ya, namanya juga BUMN, susah aja bikin dia jadi bagus, entah karena budget kurang apa gimana tapi ya fasilitasnya kayak gedung usang yang mangkrak gituloh beb, agak sedih jadinya. Padahal tiap tahun udah ratusan anak PKL dan TA di situ tapi kenapa nggak ada improvement-nya. Tapi gapapa,tetep harus diapresiasi. PTDI ini menghasilkan pesawat asli produk dalam negeri loh, pesawat-pesawat AU gitu dan bahkan part-part yang dikirim ke Airbus juga.

Highlight of the day adalah......tadi megang dan liat langsung pesawat pertama yang dibikin sama Pak Habibie!!! Seriously, itu pesawat N250 yang warna biru yang masuk film Habibie & Ainun itu!!! Huhuhu senang megang salah satu benda bersejarah. Highlight lain adalah senang karena sedikit kekhawatiran tentang ga dapet topik agak berkurang. Saat ini mau bikin TA topiknya FMS (Flexible Manufacturring System), sebuah konsep perancangan layout yang fokus sesuai group technology.

LET'S SEE HOW MUCH I BEAR THIS TOPIC.

BISMILLAH. Anyway, selamat Februari, selamat membagi kasih sayang!