Remaja Labil.

    Everybody’s growing. Everybody’s changing.

I know I’m wild. Well, a little bit wild. I know I can’t be a sweet girl who will always smile and say everything tenderly. I just do what I wanna do. If I wanna scream, I’ll scream. If someone’s done something bad and it’s harmful for me and many people, I’ll get angry. I don’t wanna hide who I really am.

But please don’t judge people by their appearance. Okay, I look a bit messy but it doesn’t mean that I’m lazy. Well, sometimes I’m lazy actually. But if you think I’m the  urakan one. Sorry, you’re wrong. I’m not that wild. I can put my self in the right position. I know how I should act in front of many people. Yeah, sometimes it doesn’t work well. I’m not the ones who can control their emotion easily. If wanna do something, I just do it. But everybody’s changing, right? My resolution on my last burstday is being more patient and able to control my self better, keep my self calm. But I’m learning. I make mistakes. Does it matter? I don’t think so. Who doesn’t make mistakes? Everybody does! People who think they do  no wrong are the worst since it means that they never learn. Sometimes I get angry at somebody so easily and blame her/him. Sometimes I say something unhappy that she/he doesn’t wanna hear. Sometimes I shout too loud and it bothers everyone, but sometimes, I don’t even mean to do that! My voice is loud. It is. I do it just for fun. Don’t take it seriously. Sometimes I don’t mean to get angry or shout over-loud or something, but you think I do then you claim that I’m an urakan girl who used to live in slum places and do bad things such what I’ve done (screaming and shouting too loud). No! I’ve been taught many things by my parents. I know how to appreciate and respect people. I do know how to do all the good manners. But, yeah. I’m not a girl, not yet a woman. A teenager has always been unstable. I can’t control my emotion and show bad manners.

I think I’m true that they  are those which are called characteristics. If they are my characters and attitudes, so why? Neither you nor them can change it, God and me exceptionally. God, He’s the One who can make it happen. And I’m the only one who decides the best for my self. I’ve decided to change my self. I’m trying. Trying to make my self better. Making mistakes is only a part I should pass. You  may not see any change in me, but I do. I see it, even it’s a very small one.

So this is me, I don’t force you to like me. 
I just want you to realize that sometimes, what you see doesn’t always come together with the reality.