Hitting up blogspot again cos life starts to freak out....literally.
Ok so...it's me. In case you forgot that I existed. Lol.
The last time I write about work....was when I was about to start my FIRST JOB, which is Kantar Millward Brown. Gosh, I hate myself that I didn't write much (or didn't write at all) about my life there....cos it was happy life in MB!
At first it was lohe-leho moments. Everything was new. I have never worked full time previously and I just realized that I hated routine (I do miss college where every day is a surprise day and that my impulsivity got its best place). I just knew MB 2 weeks before I started tho, so I guess I had no expectation at all about prior to working there as well. Yet everything is exactly what and how I needed to learn, MB is exactly what and how it needed to be for my first job! Guess what?
I love marketing and this market research industry, or MB to be exact, is literally what I needed to:
- Learn marketing at the very basic.
- Start my professional world right.
- Know my kind of ideal workplace.
Yas, I started at December 2018....and resigned per September 2019.
It broke my heart as well to know that I did resign from this company but then again.....
HERE. I. AM.
RIGHT HERE. RIGHT NOW.
In Medan for my first stint in one of the best (if not the best) MANAGEMENT TRAINEE PROGRAM OF ALL TIME.....for one of the best (if not the best) BIG FMCG COMPANY IN THE WORLD.....with one of the best (if not the best) OFFICE IN INDONESIA.
Wanna bet?
Here I am. At Unilever.
It's. Freakin'. UNILEVER.
Who would've thought that?
This has been my 5th (and last) attempt applying for MT program (after Ruangguru, Shopee, Danone, Gojek yet all failed) but when I thought I had enough trying and would just gave up already..... Allah gave me this. I still remember the days when I hardly pray for it and thought this was probably not for me. He is kind, He is good! :)
And here I am again.
Life starts to freak out again.
(SUMPAH RASANYA INI SEKARANG KAYAK LG NGERJAIN TA)
It's like you're carrying 1000 kgs on your shoulder but everyone's is expecting you to carry 1000 kgs more. Still not my burning point tho but the last time I felt this way....was when I started to do my tugas akhir. Within this short period of 3 months, I am expected to propose recommendation. This time, WITH A PROOF. With a hardly calculated result of what I did which eventually brings improvement.
Things get hard when you have a business partner who wants help but doesn't want to be helped.
And you have 2 mentors in which each has different opinion so you kinda lost about what you're going to do. And you have a manager whose words are swords and will cut you in pieces. And you have a family with its own problems who (unintendedly) takes up space in your mind as well. And you have no one to talk to about all this heart to heart without looking at you as their boss but rather as a 23-yo girl who's lost and needs help on her own too.
But everything I'm going through is preparing me for everything I asked for.
I literally am freaked out about this journey (even if I'm still on my 7th week) but really, I'm just gonna do the best I can and let God do the rest. I'll just need to make sure that what I gave (time, energy, heart) will justify my worth to deserve the best too.
Aamiin.
Lead me along this journey, ya Allah. Bismillahirrohmanirrohim.
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