Well, been so busy these four weeks. Yes, I’m gonna be
stressed!
Just want to have a very deep sleep and when I wake up,
voila!!! everything’s good. But it’s a mess all around and it’s hard to fix somehow..
Imagination and reality is different, though.
Maybe it’s me and my greed to blame. That I was am so
ambitius, want everything on my own. Sometimes it’s my ego which controls me,
not my brain, or my logic. I don’t even care about my health, as long as I’m
happy, things that come with it can be overcome.
Yes, sometimes I regret. How I left my family on most Sundays
to go to A’s B’s C’s etc house, to school, to somewhere faaar away, saying they
needed me ‘cause I had some tasks to do and it’s my responsibility, refusing
the facts that my family also needed me. How I acted like a stranger in my
home. Wake up at 4, go to school, study, go home, study again (sometimes :p),
go to sleep. Like a guest, a robot.
Is it too late to get things rite now? I hope it isn’t. Everyone
has a chance, rite? Although sometimes chance only comes once. But, that’s not
the important one, it’s about how to start fixing it, controlling ego and
prestige. And the only way is the first
step.
Am ready for it?
Well, let’s try!
