Let Me.

NABIL KAMU PAKE SUSUK APASIH yaampun:(

Kamu gila.
Kenapa aku bisa sesayang ini sama orang ya Allah aku gapaham astagfirullah...

Tiap hari (almost tiap jam menit detik apalagi kalo di jalan liat org pacaran) aku mikirin kamu meskipun aku tau kamu mungkin ga kepikiran aku sama sekali.
Tiap malem sebelum tidur aku bacain chat kita selama ini dan end up nangis kalo inget bentar lagi (sehari lagi tepatnya) kamu bakal mutusin aku.
Tiap malem.
TIAP MALEM BIL.

Aku udah berusaha melepas kamu day by day dengan berusaha ikhlas kalo km ga ngechat dan entah for the past several days it worked.

But.
Then.
Today,
my 6th day of attempt to expect nothing from you,

I met you.
And you smiled to me.

GOSH.
What did I do wrong how could I be so in love with you?
Usahaku enam hari terakhir gagal, Bil.
Gara-gara aku ketemu kamu.
Gara-gara kamu senyum.
Gara-gara kamu bilang "Yah, bete dia".

Dan aku berharap kita bisa mempertahankan hubungan ini lagi. Padahal everyone knows how tired I am.

It's driving me crazy.
You're driving me crazy.

I bought you a jar and some papercrafts today.
You have any idea of what I'm gonna make to you?
Oh yes,
I am gonna give you a jar of '25 Reasons Why Bethari Loves Nabil So Much" kinda thing, a jar that was once I planned to give you on our first anniversary.
But yea.
Before it's too late. Before it's over.
Before you finally find that one girl whose name you'll always put in your future priority list.

For this only time,
Let me tell you why I love you.
This. Damn. Much.