Hello.
Just a little update to no one that I just had my 2nd mental breakdown today (current update: up to my 3rd as I'm crying while typing this). Fyi, this is my third mental breakdown during the whole UFLP process. First in Medan, second in Pepsodent, and third here. I don't know how this will take me the next day but I can confidently say for now that I don't like my role in Shopper Marketing Hypermarket-CC. I love the people. But not the job.
The workload is not manageable. Second worst after BB Pepsodent, even worse than UI. This, plus the UFLP so-called grooming agenda with me being the PIC for other 2 big projects (which are NPD Criteria Check and Omnichannel). And not to mention the extracurriculars: me being the vocalist of HPM band and me being the PIC for SMASH (EVERY MONTH) until March next year.
I dont know if it's me being away from God & myself (after long time of not journaling) affects this or this alone is already hard to handle to begin with. But for now, I don't know if I'm gonna survive....
Cukup diputer-puter ya Allah. Capek.. Capek banget. This is my 4th role already within a year. I know I've overcome much hardship before arriving at this point but please.. no more. No more rotation. No more adaptation. No more adjustment. It's so exhausting mentally & physically. I want to settle. I want to dig deeper. I want to excel on something. I want to have lasting impact and it's so hard to so at the moment.....
(Latest update: I had 7 mental breakdowns today in total. Crazy huh)
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