Tentang Sakit (dan Patah) Hati.

Who broke your heart?
Well, go say thank you to whoever they are!

"Everyone has one heartbreak that changes them."

Agree?
Well not kinda. I think it should be more than one. Everyone has heartbreaks that change them. And by heartbreak here I dont mean only those by boys, but by everyone. By a bunch of boys who were back-gossiping you while you tried so hard to look pretty, by the it girl who underestimated you, by your best friends who unintentionally made too much fun of your scars without them noticing, or even by your own parents, who said your flaws out-loudly to the relatives.

Salah satu yang membuat manusia berubah, yang membuat aku berubah, adalah sakit hati (yang terkadang mislead dengan dendam). Dan sakit hati adalah sebuah senjata yang sangat powerful, I must say. I spent most of my time back then regretting how I look, how miserable my life was, how cruel everyone is, how rude every boy making fun of me (and those who unintentionally said 'Bethari gendut banget' well guys meskipun I looked ok with that, DONT DO IT! dont ever say a girl is fat unless she'll hate you forever deep down!!), tons of other hows. I turn them to hard works and revenge.
And I thank them anyway, for making me who I am (meskipun I am still far from perfect).

Umm, what I'm tryna say is....you know, sometimes it is nice to have your heart broken.
If it is not, then I can say, it is completely okay to have your heart broken.

You may hate, you may cry, you may wanna slap them in the face, or punch them with a chair, or throw them out of your sight for the rest of your life, or worst you may wanna kill them, sneak to their room with a knife and will be so happy to do so. It is okay too. But remember, you have a role in his life. So did they. It's either you come to teach them something or they come to teach you something.
And is it bad? Not at all.

Your heartbreak is what makes you, what empowers you. It applies to the others as well.
In the end, you are young, wild, and free. You have the rights to learn and make mistakes, but remember you have the responsibility to do it the right way too.

Go play around and break hearts. Tease, chase, run, and hide. Change people.
But be prepared to be broken too. Be ready to pick your pieces up and change.

(writing this cos I can slowly connect the dots of the dreams my mind made up these past years. Bahwa sakit hatiku inibeberapa waktu yang lalu membuatku sedikit demi sedikit membuka mataku tentang apa yang benar-benar aku inginkan dalam hidup, sesuatu yang selama ini ada tapi nggak pernah aku sadari atau akui, yang salah satunya adalah mengapa aku dilahirkan di dunia ini)